I've Lost the Way

At practice today, I've realized that I've lost the Way. I don't have that fighting spirit that I used to have. It's been beat out of me. I've become just like everyone else. All of them soft and without a spark. So, I've instead have "improved". My stances are better, my kime is better, my kihon is better. But I have no spirit. No more as I did at the beginning. I've become a shell of what I was.